For me it is wrapped up in denial. Like when I’m feeling “ok” I think there’s nothing wrong with me and what if this is all false, I’ve made it up for attention. I struggle accepting the realities of what I have gone through. I’m finding it confusing. I also asked new T if it’s all just perimenopause and I got a firm NO there (though the hormone swings can play a role triggering symptoms I’m told)