Hello everyone
This is my first time posting I hope you'll help me . At first i had normal anxiety u know before and exam or simpe stuff the last two years I have gotten worse I cant concentrate in the university I failed a subject twice out of anxiety on exams I dont get much sleep . It's not only in my studies It's even in my health I have a friend who is psychological consultant for cancer patients and every time we talk I ask her about breast cancer or other kinds and i feel worried that i might get beast cancer even though she tries to calm me down and she did say that i do have signs of GAD . I just notice I'm getting worse to the point as when i fail an exam or do bad at a test I keep telling my self ur a failure u can't do anything right always missing up ur alaways a burden and then i lock myself up in my room and when my mom tries to comfort me i flinch when she touches me as if i dont deserve her being nice to me my family are worried about me they say i keep locking myself up and i dont open up to them anymore I do open up to my fiance but even he is worried about me and i keep telling him things like u deserve someone better than me or I'm not perfect like u think sometime i worry that he will get tired of me and just leave even though he is there for me all the time . I dont know what to do anymore . Do i need to go to a doctor if so can i do it without my family knowing i dont want to worry them about me I'm not sure if they will even take me and if u all can please give me advice tell me am I being too anxious