Tonight I blew up. Yelled at my poor family, punched a wall, screamed until it hurt, and now I cant stop crying. I don't even know what triggered it.

I'm done with constantly feeling this way and intermittently exploding on people that don't deserve it (even if I feel like they do).

Tomorrow I'm going to call my pdocs office and ask for an earlier appointment. A few days ago in group I said I wasn't going to comply with any med changes, but I'm at such a bad spot right now Ill set myself on fire if it'll treat my depression.