I agree with Christina, become stable and happy with life by yourself first.

How many women are going to go for someone whose happiness depends on having a partner, to the point of obsession, and does not know how to enjoy alone time? I worry if you only think happiness will come to you in the form of a romantic relationship, you will come across as clingy to any woman you try to date. Be happy with yourself first, become stable, establish a routine, these things are more important than finding a relationship.