Hi, I'm a returning member. About a month ago I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder, and though I've read a lot about it, I'm still in shock/disbelief a bit.

I'd like to be able to hear others experiences with BPD and dependent personality disorder (one doctor told me I might have the former instead of the latter).

I've been in psychotherapy since I was 4, when I was diagnosed with PTSD and control issues. I was COMPLETELY emotionally unstable throughout childhood, then very irritable, depressive, destructive, etc. In the past 3 years I was diagnosed with dysthymia, bipolar, ADHD, Bulimia, and OCD. I never completely identified with the bipolar diagnosis, and really feel like the BPD diagnosis fits a lot better.

My one main question out of all of this is does anyone with BPD ever find that they compulsively feel the need to tell people they love/care deeply about their imperfections, or other things that would push them away from you? I went through a period where I "had" to tell my boyfriend about every imperfection he had; then another where I "had" to tell him every other guy I was attracted to -- even his friends. He hated it, and kept asking me why I was doing it, but all I could say was that I had to, if I didn't it would eat away at me. It hasn't stopped, I have a new obsession now. I feel like my mind is torturing me. I love him so much, the last thing I want to do is push him away. Is this just a weird mix of OCD and BPD or does everyone get this?!

Thanks in Advanced! I'm so confused.

Jessie