The bad anniversaries are really tough. I just went through one last week, the anniversary of my daughter's 2nd suicide attempt. It was pretty rough for me in many ways. It made me think of the fact that I have basically been in crisis mode since her 1st attempt in March of 2016 and how emotionally and physically draining that has been for me. The fact that she, at this time, is doing very good is a comfort, but I also know that could change very easily if things start going bad for her.

Anyway -- hugs out to you. Another anniversary I go through every year is the car accident and resulting death of my oldest brother. That was in 1976 when I was 14, and I have to say that while I still think of him often, the heart wrenching pain of the first several years did eventually go away.