Hmm. Yeah. Well.

Okay. There is a DSM-5 defined issue called “Fetishistic Disorder” (I first knew it as Partialism) and it specifies common fetishes - I’m just guessing that the most common fetish is for feet - but these fetishes only make it to the ‘disorder’ phase when they cause “significant distress or impairment” in functionality. I don’t think that your fetish for women’s butts has impaired you in any way? But it does seem to cause you some distress?

I wouldn’t worry about that, at all. Gee, at your age I wasn’t as concerned with my fetishes as I was with being bisexual (I was actually fine with it, but it wasn’t exactly the going concern, if you will, in the 1970’s). So, yeah, nothing wrong with the butt fetish.

Kissing girls: that is my addiction. But if you’ve only kissed a couple of girls - hell, even if you’ve kissed hundreds! - maybe kissing just isn’t what turns your crank. Have you had any other body interactions with either sex?

I grew up being attracted to, and (ultimately) having sex with, ‘both’ sexes. If you can’t even achieve a good erection whilst attempting to masturbate using gay porn as a stimulant I’m going to go out on a limb and speculate that...

...you’re not gay.

Maybe you’re bisexual, maybe not. I think that the first time that you get into some appreciative butt-worship, though, that kissing may be much more dramatic... it doesn’t sound as if your previous attempts were during highly-charged moments.

Come out? As... what?

Oh. The length of your message wasn’t a problem; but you really need some more paragraph breaks!