Your perspective is much appreciated sky, more than you may know. I find tears welling up as I read your post. He is an awesome guy. And I need to remind myself that he is worth the effort of communicating, being honest, and being patient. And, I find it hard sometimes (always) to accept positive things about me, but, I know I do contribute to the family, and to his happiness. Sometimes, when your relationships aren’t going well, it feels like the last straw, like what else is there? It makes me feel unneeded and irrelevant, like I wouldn’t be be missed if I were to walk away. Thanks again for your words