An easy session this morning.

Discussed my feelings about Group therapy and my decision to stay (my Group T contacted C, and he will be talking to her shortly)

Discussed my whole "care as a finite resource" thing as well as my fears about giving C control, what exactly I am afraid of happening in my relationship with him, and how I became so isolated while seeing S - including discussion of my being on my grandmother's home hospice team

And, discussed the end of therapy. Yeah, I know, heavy topic typically -- but, for whatever reason, not for me - not anymore. But, basically, I was explaining to him how, with S, I was so terrified of therapy ending. But, now, I've actually entered into this therapy with the goal of it eventually ending. We discussed what I think it will look like when therapy ends (my goals and my vision for how I anticipate the therapeutic relationship changing and easing into the 'end' of therapy -- I put it in quotes, because we both agreed that even when therapy is over, he'll still be there, and I can still come back as things pop up throughout life for as long as he's still working and all).