I've heard that last sentence before. I'm not saying this below is or could be you:
Then they didn't have a boyfriend and said not now and decided later they never did, but still played games with my head anyway first. Why aren't people just straightforward?

The ones I like are eventually found out to not be good people. The good people are just all taken by hopefully for them the other good people. Maybe I'm the problem and I'm not a good person, or I'm a terribleness magnet? So far I think I'm that magnet but I'm leaning toward the thought that I'm bad, I'm broken, and I'm the worst I could be. I'm not depressed about it, it's just that it seems matter of fact and some things I need to change, if I can figure out how.
But, this post has me thinking more about what's essential to a good relationship. That's been most helpful. Thank you all