My feelings about therapy have changed. I was in a very dark difficult place to begin with and my T was gentle, but also firm in making sure I stuck with it. I've learned this was because they were really concerned about my well-being. Now my T is less gentle and has placed more of the responsibility on me as to whether I go or not. So my feelings about therapy have shifted from feeling that it was mandatory that I attended to now knowing I am free to leave at anytime.

I miss the gentleness, not that it is totally absent now, but I feel different about my T now, I see them differently and think my attachment to them has changed. I think possibly it is a more healthy secure attachment, rather than the awful insecurity I felt and actually it is probably better for me that they are not so gentle and are more pushy / challenging.

Now T is someone I go to explore things with, rather than someone I clinged to in my darker days.