Ugh. Right now I am in so much emotional pain over this breakup. I cannot handle it. He was so special to me for many reasons, then he turns out to be a big fat liar in so many ways. I fear that I won't be able to ever find true love again, let alone, someone who will want to marry me one day. He wanted to marry me. The pain I feel is piercing. I cannot stop thinking about him -- it's constant. I don't know how to even carry on. I had to take today off again from work -- tomorrow too.