I think overall I'm much better than the prior 42 years. I never really knew what it was like not to feel like all the world was out to get me until meditation started during yoga showed me I am a miniscule part of everything. I do know that I'm maintaining better. I know my pain levels being markedly decreased has made a tremendous change in my quality of life, including my ability to exercise. Kratom tea has to have most of that credit. My marriage ending became the key to the true new me. Nobody easily survives mental and emotional abuse like that, and I wasn't surviving. I'm not suicidal, which is very new. I wished nearly every night that I'd never wake up from an early, early age. I don't want to die, but I do want things to improve and to accept what's there.

As an aside, I saw a short story about kratom helping those with opiod addictions on CNN this morning while working out at the gym. Please do check it out. I avoided that class of drugs anyway, because they didn't work for me. Kratom doesn't make me feel high at all. I simply don't hurt as much or at all. Big pharma wants it gone, because they can't do that and not get you addicted. They make money on addicting the consumer. When I don't take kratom, I don't have withdrawals, I simply hurt like I did before it.