I spent the morning calling pdocs. I could not find a pdoc taking new clients. This was terribly disappointing. Not one. I spent hours, finding phone numbers on line and making calls and leaving messages. Could find no one that I could see. This never happened to me in bygone days, when I spent a lot on getting psych care.

I had thought a reasonably caring doctor could help me adapt . . . with maybe some temporary pharmacological crutches. But I am on my own. And my S.O. scarcely grasps what in the heck I'm even talking about.

But I tried. Got through the day. I have to plan tomorrow . . . or I'll wake up and do nothing.

PVB, I hope you get through your morning tomorrow.