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Originally Posted by ComfortablyNumb5
Whenever I’m not feeling right and my moods are off, I blow up on the nearest person and I feel like an ***. It’s like I don’t even think first. My bf just got home from work and I went out in the kitchen and just started *****ing about anything and everything. Poor guy. When I’m like this I try and stick with “if you can’t say anything nice...” but my mouth works faster than my brain. It’s crap like this that makes me think I’m safer being alone.
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I enjoy - I get actual pleasure from - verbally abusing others. Similar, maybe, to your blow-ups, but I remain calm throughout. And the trigger for my attacks are stupidity and vengeance. My *****ing is usually very specific - not the ‘anything and everything’ that you describe.
But I am mean. That’s the word that drew me to this thread. I am mean and I am vicious and I will not retreat unless I feel that I have destroyed any self-worth that my victims may have.
Is your boyfriend the usual victim of your wrath? I only ask because of your “safer being alone” closing.
And usually there’s a reason behind feeling the need to... explode. Can you think of any reasons why you might be quick to anger just now?