I think I may have a weed problem because I use it as an emotional crutch, I eat to much when I smoke it, I spend to much money on it and since its so powerful I sometimes cant work cause I cant drive. Ive tried to quit many times, but struggle doing it. I have cut down from like 20 grams a week to 3 so there has been improvement, but Im considering quiting all together to solve some of the things listed above.

Gambling is not a problem for me now, but Im only 31 days clean and its a life-long disease that needs to be worked on forever. I have over 30 years of gambling issues and will be attending GA for the rest of my life if I want to stay sober.

When I get triggered I get pissed and angry. In the past when I get pissed and angry I would go gamble. Weed does change it for me as when I smoke weed I get happy and forget about my problems, but I cant use weed when Im working. So when I have bad encounters with customers or when that one person gets under my skin I try to let it go but for sometimes I get angry and dwell on it for hours, maybe the whole day.

Id just like some strategies so I can process these negative feelings better when they happen as they are the types of things that most normal people would let go after a minute or so.

If it relates to my BP I have no idea. Before my BP manifested at the age of 30 I didnt get upset as much and go off the deep end like I have since the BP took over.