I enjoy - I get actual pleasure from - verbally abusing others. Similar, maybe, to your blow-ups, but I remain calm throughout. And the trigger for my attacks are stupidity and vengeance. My *****ing is usually very specific - not the ‘anything and everything’ that you describe.


But I am mean. That’s the word that drew me to this thread. I am mean and I am vicious and I will not retreat unless I feel that I have destroyed any self-worth that my victims may have.


Is your boyfriend the usual victim of your wrath? I only ask because of your “safer being alone” closing.


And usually there’s a reason behind feeling the need to... explode. Can you think of any reasons why you might be quick to anger just now?