As the holidays draw closer the more anxious I become. When I was a kid I loved the holidays but now that I am older and have kids of my own the holidays scare me. I get so damn depressed and even daily activities put a strain on me. I have an appointment with my primary care physician to restart my Cymbalta in hopes it will help with the depression. I hate taking medications but it seems I have no choice. What else can I do to help me cope and deal with life? I really need help but I don’t know where to turn! My wife had a stroke a few years ago so I am her primary caregiver and we have two kids I have to care for as well. It’s not like I can just go check into a hospital for treatment. I can barely leave my house anymore without taking my wife and/or kids with me. What works for others? What can I do that doesn’t require medications. I don’t think I can handle another year feeling nothing but depression and self loathing!