Thanks for the reply Darkness, it helps.
I feel like Deathwing, because I feel I was with lots of potential for growth and life on Earth, but toxic people have damaged that view and made me question life, bringing me down to hatred. Although I can also say it kind of came from him, there was an "up and down" during and after I left therapy respectively.
I feel like Malthael because I'd see myself as a person of wisdom and peace, until I started pondering psychiatry for instance, or why other people are allowed to be **** when I am in judgement through therapy? Not fair. Not fair at all.