@99fairies I have been following your posts not that I am bipolar but that my friends are and it's been popping up in my feed on Tapatalk. People have been telling me to listen to my gut over and over again. Telling it knows what's best for me instead of my head which I guess maybe true! My question is to you instead of looking towards your husband for advice not that I say he is giving the wrong information but what does your gut say? The first thing that pops into your head is what your gut is telling you? not what these intrusive thoughts are invading your brain saying.

If it is telling you to go to the hospital I would go to the hospital and tell them everything, like everything that has happened over the past several days! They will give u something for the pain as well as if you are Sui then tell them that and I think it's depending where you are 48-72hour hold.

The 8th is too long off to wait if you say it's an emergency to that office then everything maybe rectified and you put in first round calling for cancelled appointments. They may also tell you to see someone at the hospital as well.

I have tried to end my life over and over again because of the "pain" and "suffering". But I always called for an ambulance or a emergency services or would even get a crisis line to do it! Because I knew some where inside of me that I was doing the wrong thing. This "pain", this "suffering" doesn't end but something does change the outlook on life. Don't get me wrong it's hard everyday for me I am being constantly judged or belittled by people especially professionals I am sick and tired of it. Believe me no one understands this more then me I want you to know that what you are feeling is good it's a signal you are raising all the flags asking for advice and stuff. Yet you really need to listen to that gut because it is your flag it is waving high in the air. You know yourself best so advocate it with your husband or call a crisis line or go to the hospital or call 911(depending where ya live). Right now you need to take care of you!