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Originally Posted by will19
I get so mad at myself a lot because I don't have the courage to ever blow up at anybody at work. I hold back a lot because I feel like I can't afford to lose my job since it's the only thing going right for me in my life.
There's a cleaning lady (or janitor) that upsets me and I think that she feels the same way about me. What really makes it hard is that she does not understand English. She's not hesitant to express her anger, but I am.
I'm sorry to hear what you are going through. I've been through it myself. There were times when I prevailed by just sticking it out and other times I had quit. Best to you. Oh, outside of work, I can express my anger easier.
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Sorry you're in a similar situation. It's so frustrating. I'm also assertive in other places in my life. Well, I don't even see it as assertiveness, I just naturally get on with people, and fight my corner if necessary.
But yes, the work situation makes me feel trapped.
I had a violent father, as a lot of us here seem to have had, and never learned that conflict was normal, and wouldn't always end in disaster.
I freeze.
I've always hated myself for it, but joining this forum has made me be less hard on myself.
Just because we're sensitive doesn't mean we have to feel like work is hell.
Thanks again!