Last night discovered I did have a voice message from one of the pdocs I called. So I can call that one and see if she takes my insurance.

Actually, I feel much better today. The "tone" seems much softer. I think how bad it seems has a lot to do with my state of mind. By getting all upset and freakin' out, I made the problem seem intolerable. But, while that's going on, I can't seem to get a grip. I say the right things to myself, but, only after a certain amount of time has passed, can I return to a state of emotional equilibrium - like I am in right now. I've always been this way. I just over-react.

I just read some articles about this. Supposedly, it's related to an overactive amygdala. I think it's a form of immaturity. But, having that insight, doesn't help as much as insight is supposed to help. This is why I stopped going to therapy. It doesn't change anything.