I grew up in an extremely dysfunctional house. The minute I turned 18, I left and over time got much better away from that circus. It was hard. I worked a full time job, a part time job and went to college at night but it was worth it. Ironically, I turned down a full scholarship at a university 4 hours away because I wanted to stay where I was. That was a mistake.

I agree with Mickey about giving the right therapist a chance. Keep venting here for support. I hope you start feeling better. I know you are having a tough time. I hear you and I want to lend my support.