Thank you for your response. Sorry for spamming my own thread but i feel the need to reply because everyone is being very mature and honest with me. Thank you so much.

I´ve been in therapy since i was 13, when i turned 18 they sent me to the adult psychiatrist. I met with her twice, and after evaluating me she concluded i was not in need of any treatment. She literally said i could not come back. I hid under a tree in the rain and cried.
I´ve been thinking of going to this other, more chill and free therapy place. Just need to gather bravery.