Hi all, I haven’t posted for a while as I have been utterly exhausted and in pain. After over a year of severe BP episodes it seems my body has crashed. I haven’t been this physically unwell for a long time. I can barely move and had to call in sick this weekend. This terrifies me as I had two months off due to depression only seven weeks ago. I must work next week even if I have to crawl in.

Now I am stable mentally but this crash is really getting me down. I lost my careyto Fibromyalgia in 2009 and I fought so hard to get my life back now I’m close to losing it all again. I even had to defer my exam at university. I missed out on three social events this week and feel so isolated. Exercise only makes it worse. I eat well and take a load of vitamins. My Rheumatologist has prescribed me hormones as he thinks the stress has depleted them. I start them on Monday and hope they work fast. I am drowning in despair. And terrified. This is not a life. I am trying to stay positive but do get waves of ideation hit me. I don’t know how much more I can take.