I'm not working right now. Since getting out of the hospital my daughter has been babysat while my husband is at work, so I don't have any child duty. I spend most of my days not showering, pacing around, "checking out" (aka taking my remeron and purposely sleeping), burning paper to make the negative entity go away, constantly writing down positive affirmations to conjure up positive energy, and doing a minimal amount of novel planning. And spending time being paranoid.

And I'm worried about our cat Murphy, who is dying of liver failure, so I'm pretty depressed about that. He's still holding on though. According to the vet he should be dead by now, but he's not. Which I attribute to writing over and over again that he will get better.

I don't clean or anything. I do the dishes sometimes. I'm such a horrible homemaker! I can't seem to get it together since my last overdose. Before that I was on top of everything (taking care of daughter, cleaning the apartment, etc.). Now I'm just a big mess. Maybe I need to make lists of all the things I want to accomplish the night before.

I also can't go anywhere because my husband has the car. Not that there's really anywhere I'd want to go now that the weather is ******.

What do you do all day?