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Originally Posted by raspberrytorte
I'm not working right now. Since getting out of the hospital my daughter has been babysat while my husband is at work, so I don't have any child duty. I spend most of my days not showering, pacing around, "checking out" (aka taking my remeron and purposely sleeping), burning paper to make the negative entity go away, constantly writing down positive affirmations to conjure up positive energy, and doing a minimal amount of novel planning. And spending time being paranoid.
And I'm worried about our cat Murphy, who is dying of liver failure, so I'm pretty depressed about that. He's still holding on though. According to the vet he should be dead by now, but he's not. Which I attribute to writing over and over again that he will get better.
I don't clean or anything. I do the dishes sometimes. I'm such a horrible homemaker! I can't seem to get it together since my last overdose. Before that I was on top of everything (taking care of daughter, cleaning the apartment, etc.). Now I'm just a big mess. Maybe I need to make lists of all the things I want to accomplish the night before.
I also can't go anywhere because my husband has the car. Not that there's really anywhere I'd want to go now that the weather is ******.
What do you do all day?
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Hey ras, sorry you are going through a tough time. I know what it’s like taking sleep meds to purposely sleep the day away. Iop has helped me combat this and been doing better cause of it. I’m not sure what to suggest but I’ll give you my day today, that I was off from both jobs.
Woke up at 730, checked email then did some light stretching, yoga poses. Took a shower ate breakfast and went to iop. Got out at 1230, then headed to pick up an off week paycheck from my job. Then got home ate some Spanish food for lunch. Was very sleepy after that. One thing that I learned or developed, was “the push”. Maybe it’s opposite action (didn’t really think that till writing this). I forced myself to get up get some coffee do some dishes, plan my meals and read a bit. The reading part was a bit tough. Had a light snack then went to the gym. Went food shopping afterwards and picked up a couple of movies I haven’t seen from redbox. Now I’m writing this, checking the forum and about to watch one of the movies.
I hope you can pick something up from this, if not I’ll chat some more with you
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