I don't want to create another thread, so I'll just continue on with this one.

My friend's not doing so good, again. Her family is toxic and her boyfriend who's dealing with a mood swing isn't much help right now, either. I'm having her come over after she gets off work. If I thought I was protective before, well I was wrong. I received some bad news a few days ago and I'm trying to deal with that. , but I only found out recently. I hadn't spoken to him in years but it's still messing with me. So, naturally I'm even more paranoid that my current best friend is going down a similar path. I'm not sure it's paranoia, considering she told me as much.

On another note, I'm back on my meds and taking them regularly. Only thing is that I've cut my pills in half on my AP. I just... I can't deal with the loneliness. Even if I'm being yelled at and put down, I'm still not alone. At the same time, I realize I'm mostly alone, anyway. I don't know how well my meds are going to help me if they only cause me to become even more desperate for salvation. Huh, maybe I'm the one travelling down that path. I just don't know, anymore.

Anyway, those are just some of my thoughts tonight.