Whatever. Today was a worse day after a stead downhill run and I'm not sure I'm at the base of it yet. I really don't care.

If you've been reading my posts, following me in chats, then you'll know I've been having real difficulties of the exacerbated kind, since I went off pain meds (even though I'm not back on them.) Something changed. And I'm worse

I crashed and burned (AF term) today. Flashbacks, paranoia and confusion caused .. well I'm not up to sharing right now... and probably shouldn't.

Let's just say my T required a new verbal contract today. I see him again tomorrow. My physical therapist had called him this morning also., he isn't prone to do that.

I want to say I can't take this abuse from the attorney/ins co/adjuster. But that would be lying or whining... no I can't take it...

Took my ambien a little early...

Ambien, demerol , and verbal contract... that's" all" between me and death....