Yah 20 was out of control. I was working from home at the time and I couldnt smoke in my place due to landlord so would walk around smoking one gram pre-rolls from the store. Im glad to cut down as it was to much, but 3 grams a week is reasonable. Im going to ponder more if I will quit will not in the future but for now will keep doing what Im doing.

No I dont see a therapist, my options are limited due to my insurance but may have new coverage next year.

33 days in not a lot at all, and sorry to make u nauseous, but people experience things different ways. Ive gone to meetings on and off for 25 years. Ive been forced to in the past, but now Im going on my own accord and I really like it. I have made many friends and Im taking it very seriously. Maybe I wont need GA for my lifetime but Ill have to address it until I die. Therapist are good, but Id much rather choose to heal with those who really understand the addiction and going through the same ordeal and its free and I dont need an appointment or deal with insurance.

The meetings also help with my BP as Im not isolated.

Id say if I had to go to 9000 meetings in three years like u did, which equates to almost 9 a day Id have a negative attitude about it, but since I go to three a week I find it quite enjoyable and rewarding.

I dont have any co-workers, Im an independent contractor and yes anger has something to do with it. Im very angry person as everything has been taken from me and I live in a city that I dont really want to be in separated from my family and friends. Im always broke, Im injured, Im sick, my insurance is going up 36% because of that orange POS and countless other things, but glad to say the last few days Ive found a nice calm and havent been letting that person or customers get to me, so happy to move forward and hope it sustains.