I should be IP but I have a trip home coming up and I wont miss that, for anything.
I have not felt this out of control in a long time. I want to self harm , But I just cant I have been self harm free for almost 5 years I dont want to break that long stretch.
I just wish I could just sleep , sleep away days .. but NO im to angry to sleep.
I really just want to go home, for good I dont like being back in Florida and we arent seeing the kids like it was planned, Plans seldom work out !
I miss my home, even the cold winters.... I miss that and just the quietness of having no neighbors except cows.
Sorry having a pity party for myself.
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