I haven’t been the same after a couple of deaths of close family members (one suicide (mom) and one died during an artificial heart transplant (husband)), but it does get better. The second death worsened my bipolar, seriously, and I’ve been diagnosed. My main problem is anxiety.
I’m trying a therapist that practices DBT and CBT.
Please keep trying therapy. It is possible to get better, and you can find a way to get there!
I promise!