I'm still not 1000% sure I have ADHD (I was diagnosed PI, though the testing wasn't super thorough). But I was thinking about things, in case I do end up giving stims a try sometime.

I noticed during a short trial of stimulants a while back (prescribed for severe depression at the time), that a lot of the time I'd have a lot less actual thoughts in my head while on stimulants. Now, I guess of course that kind of makes sense, since clearing the mind would be a desired effect of meds. But it just felt strange and foreign. It almost felt like I should have been thinking more, and I still don't know whether that was because the feeling of a clear mind was just new to me and I was used to too many thoughts, or whether they were actually... clearing my mind too much?

I think I remember thinking at the time that part of it was probably a reduction in anxious thinking, but I can't tell whether it was a normal, healthy reduction or whether I was actually thinking and worrying too little. It's like, I can't tell whether my anxiety's just trying to keep me anxious and fight the healthy decrease in anxiety, or whether stimulants really just make me too... I don't know.

I know I'm overthinking things, but does anyone have any input?