Why do i constantly seek acknowledgement from friends? Why do i have to overanalyze everything like how they greet me or say bye or what type of smileys they send and stuff like that.

Days feel like weeks when i have no one to talk to. When i do contact my friends, I'm sure they feel like "didnt we just talk yesterday". I have plenty of problems of my own, i choose to ignore them. Instead, focus on others.

The only thing that sorta works for me is listening to aggressive, heavy music or playing my guitar. As much as i love depressing music that adds a soundtrack to my thoughts, it makes me feel like I'm stuck in a sad movie or something

How can i rewire my brain to think that i don't need others' acknowledgement to feel like i have some value.

I am really obsessing over what my friends think of me and it is not healthy.