to the the old college boyfriend who has written me from California. Some of you may remember my writing about how, when he got the Internet, so we could correspond, he mentioned he had been looking at "porno." Well, I ceased writing to him after that, also letting him know how distasteful I find the whole area of pornography. I really don't think he's into porn, but was saying that to sound cool. I know he has sexual dysfunction, due to his severe diabetes from childhood, and I think/thought he was just trying to sound macho. Nevertheless, hearing from him again, I did and have continued to respond, though the communication is very unfulfilling. This past Christmas, I said I was sending him a gift...one of my treasures, a little sculpture of three Chinese scholars at study. This is the kind of sculpture used in Bonsai culture for decoration, but the artist was a master and I consider it one of my treasures! I packaged it and addressed the mailing box, then carried it around in my car for a week or so....wondering why I was doing this?!!!
This is yet another example of my "casting pearls before swine!" about which I've written here before.
It may sound nutty, but I can actually, lately, feel the spirits of both my deceased parents gently urging me to stop this kind of behavior...to walk away.
Patty