I’ve already been through the ringer when it comes to relationships. I don’t seem to luck. I feel like I give so much of myself and I don’t expect anything in return but what I don’t get is betrayal. I’m at the point where the only person I feel I can trust is myself because everyone as an agenda. I get along with many people but all of my relationships are on the surface. I don’t share much of myself and my issues at all. I’m more like entertainment. However, everyone comes to me during a crisis which I very much welcome. People come and go which is fine too because everyone needs to do what’s best for them.

Then I went through a divorce where my oldest son started giving info to my ex (he’s not the biological father) for monetary gains. My oldest son was reaching out to me in a mission in ord t to complete tasks given to him by my ex. He confessed to that once he was called out by my middle son. I can’t trust him now. He touched base with me maybe once a month to ask where I’m at and “catch up”. I’ve seen a pattern which is odd between his calls and my ex’s calls. Recently he asked me that if he did something wrong and I reminded him of what happened in the past . I told him that I can a relationship with him and I’m here for him but I wish not to discuss my agenda or get personal about my life. He told me that I was shutting him out and that he’s innocent. That was after a long pause. This was all through text. I didn’t answer. I’ve given up much for him and I wanted nothing in return but he continues to communicate with my ex. As long as he has that type of communication I refuse to get close to him and let him into my life the way I used to. He knew about the divorce before it happened and he played along with my ex. I can’t let that go and I prefer to let him go. I’m here for him but at a distance. I’m not sure how to communicate further now.