It sound like you are really struggling right now. When your in- love and you didn't want the relationship to end? It can leave you with a lot of mixed feeling. Your feel guilty if you had some fun watching a funny movie. Your feel anger because it ended. Your feel depressed because you wonder what you could have done to make the relationship work. It just something you have to go through for awhile. It take time to heal. Sometime you just need a little time to go through your emotion. Remember to breath and remind yourself I am only human this too shall pass. I just won't know when but when it does happen I will know. Lara Croft Tomb Raider "I woke up this morning and just hated absolutely everything"!

When you get into a relationship we think of the good times we don't plan for the bad times or the end of break up. This sound pretty normal. It will get better. It just take some time. It hurt now but it will no longer hurt in the future. I wish that I could take all of your pain from you that you are feeling.