My mom died 17 years ago, and my husband died 5 years ago.
My mom left me a recording. She said she wanted me to have a nice life.
Your dad would want you to think of the good times. His life isn’t just how he died, and if there was anyway for him to have you think of the good times, I’m sure that is what he would want you to do.
I’m sorry - this day is a tough one, I know