I feel suicidal impulses a lot in my bleaker periods but what has always held me back is knowing the effect it would have on my own daughter - I could not do that to her having experienced a suicide threatening parent myself throughout my childhood. I know it is hard for you but I do want you to know you have helped me maintain my resolve, I know why I must resist those temptations. Even though it's bloody hard at times to keep going somehow I manage to claw my way back from the precipice and get help in time.

I'm so sorry you had to go through this yourself