This depression and anxiety is weighing very heavy on me, as I'm sure it is for so many others here. The impact and consequences financially and emotionally could be devastating. Feeling desperate, don't want to lose my job due to BP.

I believe I have TRD - treatment resistant depression. So I'm wondering if I could some how make myself hypomanic, I've been hypo before, latest bout lasted 6 months. Dec 2016 - May 2017 but it just happened without my intervention. I was very up and productive/ Made a few errors in judgement, none serious.

Anyone else done this? Is there a "safe" way to do it? What are the downsides?

I'm thinking of using SAM-e even though it says not for use if you're BP.

I'm currently trying the Fisher Wallace CES - Cranial Electro Stimulation device, and a recommended large - 11 x 17 inch light therapy lamp. But no results so far with CES after 2.5 weeks. Therapy lamp only a few days so have to give that time.