Golden Eve , I’ve been following this thread and can honestly say that I really feel your pain. I can also feel how much the community is trying to ease your pain with many supportive comments. I want to reiterate a lot of was said already. If you are a caring , feeling , loving , person you are food for the sharks out there. They will use you to suit their own purposes and then at some point discard you . Right now you are so clouded by feelings that you can’t use the part of your brain that processes REALITY . I’ve been through the kind of pain your going through right now. You MUST distract yourself in as many ways as possible. Talking , exercise, work , and yes , play !
There’s no getting around the pain. You must go thru it. Think about it , why would you let any one person own you like this ? Everything fades over time .
You will find new love out there. Someone who will be worthy of your love.
Put yourself on auto pilot !Just go through the motions , until you can reign in your emotions. It can get better. Read your own signature over and over !
It’s a tough world out there , especially for us who carry certain burdens.
But like lifting weights make your muscles stronger , exercising the “other “ part of our brains will make it stronger too. This moment is the only one that really counts. You can , and will , make it. yourself !