Hugs wildflowerchild
I absolutely understand the feelings you have described. It’s what I experienced last week. I too felt my brain was acting against me. I found Rosa76’s comment very insightful and helpful. This is 5 days later for me and I’m feeling more positive again. Hang in there, I keep trying to remember when so many others on here support each other to ride out the bad until it passes. Right now I’m in “determined” mode and have decided to really try and improve my sleep hygiene. Sticking to the same bedtime and wake time 7 days a week has had positive benefits for me (It doesn’t solve the bigger MI issues but it helped me cope better). Sending hugs your way and I hope today is a bit better for you