Well I ended up with two hours of sleep. My mind is going so fast right now I feel like my head is spinning. I feel like I can’t sit but there’s nothing I actually want to do. I feel compelled to hurt myself just because it will let some of the energy out but that might not be true, just another trick of my brain. So I won’t. I am not being besieged by images and plans right now so that’s a plus.

I’m going to try my hardest to drive safely to php today. I feel like I should crash my car but I don’t want to hurt anyone else.

I hope I sleep tonight. Right now I don’t feel like I could sleep ever again.