Overall, depressed and anxious, but 1/2 of a lorazepam pill every 3 hrs helped but only a little. Worst time is in the morning...lack of energy, feeling paralyzed, but got up and actually took a shower.

Tried to resist but laid back down on the couch (my bed). Didn't have to work today. Wasn't easy but pushed myself to get up around 8am and started to cook some breakfast - the only motivator to eat halfway right, is to cook for my roommate and I.

Had to take some meditation / calming breaks every so often so took awhile to finish cooking, but I didn't burn anything, lol. Played some card games with roommate and then went online and found this forum community and joined today, yay :-)

Doing a little better right now as I type this since it's a distraction and keeps away the ruminating thoughts. Started some dinner but not sure if my roommate is going to show for it so not too motivated.