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Originally Posted by rwwff
I definitely think there's something to it. The one time I was exposed to a narcotic (post surgery), it wasn't for very long, but once I ran out I wanted more in the creepiest, most unnerving sense you can imagine. Addiction is not supposed to happen that fast, "take as directed, nothing will happen."
I thought I wanted it for pain, but I didn't; in the end, I swapped to the nsaid/acetomenophen thing with no pain issues, but I *still* wanted that feeling, or lack there of I guess.
Never want to go there again. Hate feeling out of control like that.
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Mine was post op knee surgery and follow up appointments. I chased it longer than you by a fair amount. Next came a shoulder surgery and they had to go in twice, so lots of pills to ease lots of pain and I complained it still hurt at followups. After that ran out I would get this bad cough from allergies giving me post nasal drip and regular cough syrup isn't doing the trick, can I get some of the good stuff, please? The last time I pulled that one was back in Feb. I have since come clean with my doctor and there is a never again note in my file. I never got physically addicted and I would go months between incidents but i never stopped wanting it. It's still locked away from me at home (because I also came clean with wife and family).
I would like to think I could resist it now but I am glad it is locked away. I am around drinking sometimes (quit 4 months ago) and it doesn't bother me. I have no interest in stimulants now; once I got off adderall I was glad and never have any desire for it. But the opioids? I need to avoid them at all costs. An inner voice was screaming bloody murder when I came clean with my doctor; fortunately another part of me was just as frantic about staying clean.