Thank you so much for understanding, Bjornen. I really appreciate it. I'm gonna go ahead and share this with my therapist next session. I now feel a little more confident she won't respond negatively... just for that extra professional reassurance, you know?? A positive response, I imagine, will also help me trust her a little more when it comes to similar issues like this one.

prefabsprout, that's really, really reassuring. At the time, I believe one of the few people I told implied that I tell her - I didn't, thank goodness. And I certainly never will, not that it would be possible to do so anyway. I truly am so sorry for his family, I really, really am. Thank you for understanding, you've been wonderful. The support here has made me feel less guilty but I'll definitely see what my therapist has to say now that I feel a lot more confident opening up about all this.

Thank you, everyone.