as a youth though not dxed was my "ping pong ball in a hurricane " period ,, now it is depression ... the old folk bp illness ... anger is my mania these days ... whether I am bp or not I will not be going off my meds anymore ... I fought them for years going off and on many times .. but when I found something that worked .. I'm keeping it .. I wish you well on whatever path you chose .. Love .. Tigger .