Yes, exactly! I also tend to go with the flow. Sometimes I feel my isolation is stepping over to the unhealthy side, but other times I feel it's important to give myself some breathing space, before I can truly be "there" for people who need me, so it's a form of taking a little break from too many obligations and commitments socially. Plus, my job is demanding, so I need every minute to myself that I can possibly take.

Depression does often play a role for me though. I don't find as much joy or motivation in making plans with others, compared to previously. I do the occasional lunch though. I took a break from dating or those type of websites. It's way too much to me, and I don't feel like facing the unfamiliar socially. While I can acknowledge that some of my isolation certainly has to do with depression, I have certain responsibilities that I feel I need to handle at this time. I still talk on the phone here and there and have a few relatives, who I interact with regularly, but I used to be more social and connected to friends and plans. Maybe it's too overwhelming at this time, but it's okay to withdraw a little bit, until I'm ready. Everyone else is out there dealing with a lot of their own responsibilities any way, since we are all adults, so there isn't a ton of pressure to be a certain way to begin with.

I think a little time is what I need. The weather isn't even going to be great these next few months anyway. I get scared that life is going to pass me by, but I do have some medical things that need to be squared away first as well as working through anxiety and depression. Like I said, I can't really be there for anyone else, before I take care of my own needs.