Depression doesn't just make me feel bad, it makes me underperform at my job. It's gotten to the point where I feel I'm going to lose a job I've been doing for over 25 years if things don't improve. My boss knows I suffer from depression, but I'm not sure if that's going to make any difference. I'm dreading going into work each day because I know I'm not doing well. I'm not sure if I should take another leave of absence or keep showing up and sucking at my profession. I am the provider for my family, so taking a sabbatical or unpaid leave is not an option. Winning the lottery is my dream, since I don't have the age or years for retirement. Pray for me please or wish me luck. I'm going back tomorrow.