I know exactly what you're going through when I started therapy almost a year ago now I felt no emotions ever I stuffed them down forever and I had all kinds of trauma for the first 20 years of my life. I started EMDR to get over a car accident and I knew that my childhood was not great but boy did it bring out all the cans of worms. Eventually all kinds of things started coming back to me animotion started pouring out especially in the beginning of EMDR. I will never forget when I realized that I actually do feel fear I had never thought that I was afraid of anything ever and that just flipped me out over the edge. I felt broken and shattered I felt like my whole life was a lie. I hate emotions fear is the worst one but my therapist said that even though I feel worse now because I'm feeling things that feeling is one step above num so I'm actually doing better. It doesn't feel that way to me but I guess he is the expert. He said even if I'm not home and I'm not feeling the feelings he motions they're still there my body my brain are still dealing with them even though I'm pushing them aside. I know that to get better and get to the other side of this horrible life I've been living I do have to feel the feelings I do have to learn to deal with emotions I'm not taking the DBT class to help with that, and I do have to work through the EMDR and learn to deal with the trauma and put it in the past. If it is something you want to do I would find someone experiencing EMDR that's willing to take the time and go slow and work with you. EMDR is usually not a quick fix if you've had complex trauma throughout your life but it does get easier. I am lucky to have a great trauma therapist who has worked hard at finding ways to get me through EMDR. I have DID and I dissociate a lot so he has to use different techniques to get me through it. He says it is very easy to go too fast and almost impossible to go too slow, but he is patient and kind through the whole thing. Eventually I'll get there someday. Good luck with whatever you decide.